I’m not any of the things you said I was, and I can’t help but hang my head as tears flow freely from my expressionless face.
It’s dark, and they can’t see why I took my skates off and am sitting on the sidelines.
They can’t feel my heart beating though my chest.
-missing-
And I understand now how cold it really was when you sat here supporting your ice queen.
Blew it. I blew it out of the water.
Shards of every reminder. Anything banana. Songs we danced late into the night to. Embedded in every feeling part of my body.
Can’t help but want to be selfish, turn back time, and shower you in kisses and labels – whatever you want.
I finally let someone in, just to shut them out again. I’m no better than the reasons that seemed legitimate
And in the center of it all. I’m spinning. I see your face, and my eyes leak drops of everything that will never be. I was pretty sure I was detached, but It’s clearly not the case.
The beautiful little singing bird that perched it’s satin feathers on my palm was thrown into the air when I recognized I’d been tightening my grip around it’s throat.
You gave me a power I can’t handle. Passive you sat as you fed me a type of control caustic to my natural inclination. It slowly dissolved any kindness in my bones as my veins sputtered with a thick black sludge that slowly hindered my ability to see beauty anymore.
I’m not built for this. And now. After this word vomit I re-realize the right decision. She’s free now, and I’ll be able to sleep without the guilt of my cruelty stealing my dreams when I slumber.
The bed will be cold and lonely, but I made it for myself.
I give up.
Freedom sits on your shoulder. The pilot light is still lite in your heart. …. When that flame burns so bright and hot in your heart. Save a smile for me…
Secretly sending you hugs.
Love will never die in that freebird. She whistles for all to hear; just how close she was to an angel.
Freedom kiss.
They Always Leave.
they wouldn’t have left, if they knew “love” was possible to hold up against the world as two awesome creatures…nor was it easy for them I’m sure…you may see them happy and joyful but I can assure you they are not! What they may have wanted was the chance to love hard and love now, with you…maybe, just maybe…you will see that its not a goodbye but a see you later…
Not gone.
Never going away.
They will fight. Will you?!
They will jump. Will you?!
They’re willing to take a chance. Will you?!
Is this all worth it?
-Yes.
.White Satin.
“they always leave” … because you push them away!
Like they do from me, as I do from them – we learn from each other. We take what we can, and leave each other better for knowing one another. Yes, they always leave, but I leave too. We all leave each other eventually, and pieces of ourselves behind as we grow and change and go where the wind takes us.
….grew a lot over the last few months.. Confused and slightly frustrated got the best …
Finding happy “the smile” is every where again..
Enjoy yourself.
-l l-